Had to take a shower to Realize

I woke up this morning at 6:30am and did my usual. My Mind Body & Soul Workout

1.) Meditate for 30min
2.) Cook Breakfast
3.) Elliptical for 20min
4.) 100 stomach crunches
5.) Shower
6.) Eat Breakfast

Ok so I wrote this list to kinda show my new morning daily routine. So I woke up and everything was great and nothing outta the unusual. "UNTIL" I got to number  #5. Oh and something was not the same in anyway shape or form. I got into the shower and realize how much room I had than usual : /. I had to stop and think to myself, there was no way my manger broke into my apt in the middle of the night and super~Sized my walk in shower. I had to calm down and realize I'm Loosing weight lol. I speak for myself when I say this; I never see the weight loss until something catches me off guard. For me it was taking a shower ;). Its so funny to me now. I use to complain about the shower being to small and crowded. It turns out that I was just Too Big at the time to enjoy it. I decided to loose weight for myself and my daughter. My daughter is 2 1/2 and is unable to walk at this time. So that means I have to to carry her up and down 2 flights of steep stairs with equipment and every where else. I came to a conclusion to myself, that I needed to stay healthy and fit for her. I find that i need less time to sleep and have a tremendous amount of energy now. So Mind Body & Soul is the way to go.

Being a Mom to a Disable Child

 Being a parent in general has its ups and downs, but having a child with special needs is another thing. I am a single mother of a 2yr daughter by the name of Asiah (pronounced Asia  being that the "H" is silent) Fyi lol My little Love Bug, was born at 6 months with many difficulties and only 4 days to live. She was 11.9'' tall and 1.8 pounds. As small as she was, she was my little fighter that never gave up and that she proved to the doctors every step of the way. With over 11 surgeries and many trips to Children's Hospital, she is still here. I can still remember all the days I'd spent there and all the nights I cried, praying for the day I would get to bring her home. My wish came true the day she came home, which led to other responsibilities and sacrifices I was willing to take. But despite the outcome I knew I was in it to win it and didn't plan on giving up no time soon. As long as I believed it in my heart and soul, things would be ok . I went from being the happiest mother on earth to being disown by family for not a boarding her. I received weird looks to  hurtful remarks from people who never knew me. Even from long term friends I've lost along the way. I am still here with even more hope and strength than ever. Yes everyone has hopes and dreams for there children and mine are simply mild stones of a since of accomplishments. Just seeing her laugh to the temper tams, Asiah is who she is and more. She deserves to be here just as much as anyone else. So I close in saying, " I am Still The Happiest Mother in the World".